im so sorry :( but it seems that you have a positive attitude, which is so great because that will help you through...i'm sorry, i have you and your family in my thoughts.
I am so sorry you have to go through this. Please, take care of yourself and know that things will get better. Don't ever forget that we are all here for you.
oh FP, i'm so sorry. my eyes are welling up too -- especially after reading your response. please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers and we're here if you need anything.
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