STYLETHREAD -- LET'S TALK SHOP!

ok about two months ago my boyfriend started abusing me and acting like a completly different person.he monitered my calls and didnt let me go out of the house except for work. everyone bashed him but i loved him so i thought it didnt matter. and about 8 months ago i cheated on him and he told me he was over it but hes not. His doctors office started calling our house saying that he was missing his appointments that he told me he was goin gto. he was in the phyatriact(sp?) ward for about 2 weeks and is bipolar and slightly schitzo. he was taking about 6 different percriptions and i found out that he just went off of them suddenly.so while he is withdrawling from his meds i would go to work and he would watch our daughter because he got laid off. I would come home at 8 at night and she would still be in her pajamas from the night before the house would be all smokey and he never gave her "real" people food. our daughter is 11/2 and with me only eats one bottle a day if that. I got very pissed and moved to my parents for a bit. i mean its his own daughter and he is capable of taking care of her. i start suspecting that he is doing meth because he never sleeps and looks like crap and lost a bunch of weight. so he promises to take better care of her. about this time a girl i know starts calling the house and saying that he owes him money and drugs. i flip a gourd and we have a screaming match that ended up with me being throw on the floor held there and getting yelled at in my face this happens about ever time we fight. so the day after that we go get a christmas tree and everything seems fine. the day after that he tells me he is walking to get ciggs and i dont see him for 3 days. he comes back tells me he is leaving us for a 43 year old with 4 kids. i start crying and sobbing and he smacks me in the face. i was so scared that i locked my self in my babys room with her and call my mom. he disconectsthe phone while we are talking and litterly breaks down the babyroom door. my mom calls my aunt who lives a few blcks away and the police. I grab the baby all while he is raging and hitting me and go to my aunts and then to the police. they arrest him for domestic voilence and harrassment. i slapped a restraining order on him the next day so he cant have any contact with his baby or me for a whole year. what really breaks my heart is now is is all strung out on drugs. how can a person choose drugs over your own child?  oh and while he was moving he took all the wrapped christmas presents for our daughter. i dont know where or what he is doing with them but i bought them all and am on such a limited budget that i cant afford to buy much else.

oh and yesterday my grilfriend and i were moving some of my stuff out of the app and his mom comes over grabs my keys off the table and speeds off. i called the police but sh ejust denied it so there is nothing they can do about it. i am such a stress monkey everylittle sound at night makes me jump.

thank you fo rletting mego on like this i feel better.