Im having problems with one of my really close girlfriends and I'm just avoiding her because of it. She's about a size 0/2 barely eats works out like crazy and is obsessed with her weight. I'm tired of her patting her flat stomach and complaining she looks fat. I've recently gained 10 pds and last time we worked out together she watched me put my weight into the machine and asked "OMG what happened, I can't believe you gained weight, I guess I'm just too vain to gain weight" I want to scream at her " F*#@ You eat a damn cinnabon already and stop being such a bi*#h" but instead I just avoid her.
I'm 31 years old and I want a baby and after 3 years of DH saying he wants one he now wants to hold off. I feel like crying every time I see a baby now.
My 2 best friends and my DH do nothing but complain lately and they use me as their ear for every thing that they're annoyed with and I'm tired of listening to them complain and moan all the time. I cant remember the last time one of them asked me how I was doing.
My friend has me watch her dog a few times I week and he's the sweetest dog ever but he sheds all over my house and my DH is always mad because he thinks I don't clean when I actually vacuum twice a day.
My aunt is dying of breast cancer, I'm doing the Avon walk in Chicago and was planning on doing it in her honor but I'm slowly and sadly realizing but that time I'll likely be doing it in her memory and I'm just not ready to deal with this reality yet.
-- Edited by Collette at 16:35, 2008-02-26
-- Edited by Collette at 10:34, 2008-02-28
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Collette, I am so sorry about your aunt and just want to say that I think you are amazing for doing the Avon walk. I have always wanted to.
I was just laid off from another job that is too slow to keep me on and the only support my DH gave me was telling me he told me so for getting a job at a small firm and not going back to some corporate hell hole just for the job security.
I have a part time job 2 days a week that I ADORE but it's a new, small business that this woman runs out of her home and it's way too new for her to afford to bring me on for more then 2 days so I will probably have to give it up for the above mentioned corporate hell hole job that I am probably going to have to get now.
I HATE the job search process!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate trying to sift through all the bullshit sales jobs that are flooded on Monster and HotJobs no matter what job category you search for that it makes me not even want to look because I don't believe in my heart that there is a decent job out there that I will ever enjoy. Not to mention the whole cover letter/resume process that is using all the typical cheesy "please hire me I am so organized and motivated and interested in your company" crap. The whole thing just makes me depressed and tired which is why on the days I have had off this week to look for a job I have stayed in bed cuddling with my dog and watching daytime tv till about 10:30 and I don't get out of my pajamas all day. And my idea of a lunch menu is cheetos and blueberry pie with ice cream. Awesome, I'm right on track.
I have to ask for a deferment on my student loans which I can't pay right now and every time I think about it it makes me want to cry because I am starting to hate the field I picked and wish I hadn't wasted the money to go to college for it in the first place because the jobs in the field pay shit unless you have like 15 years experience.
My whines feel very small right now, but here they are:
I bought a sweater on final clearance at J.Crew and of course, it does not fit. I tried to take it back to the store, and the woman was SUCH a bitch. She was quite possibly the rudest SA I've ever met. I know it's my fault - it was final sale. But her behavior just enforced my belief that Milwaukee is one of the rudest cities in this country. There are so many rude people here! I think that belief that people have that Midwesterners are friendlier is a bunch of bull.
Randomly, the flowers on my orchid will start to curl up and then I have to cut them off when they die. I don't know if this is normal (is that supposed to happen?), but it's making me sad. This is my third orchid. The other two died, I think. They're so pretty, but I don't think I'm cut out for trying to grow them.
This kid that sits near me in two of my classes keeps looking at me. I don't know if he's into me though, because he never talks to me, he just looks at me. He's cute too.
This creepy guy that works for maintenance in my apartment building always tries to talk to me! Seriously, the weirdest people try to flirt with me... I guess I should be flattered, but seriously, can't someone who is cute AND normal flirt with me?
I have a "boyfriend" at school. He does not know he's my boyfriend, but I have such a crush on him that my friends started calling him that. Anyways, we have no classes together and I haven't seen him in two weeks. It's making me so sad! Seeing him is the highlight of my day. He's so hot, and so shy.
I think the girls that work in the leasing office (which is where I have to go to pick up packages) think I'm a shopaholic, which is making me think I'm a shopaholic. I do feel like it would be impossible not to shop, which may be a problem...
I'm going to Philly for spring break to see some really good friends, but I'm a little bummed that I don't get to go somewhere warm. I'm so sick of winter!
ETA: Collette, and D, and anyone else who posted: I'm sorry to hear about your troubles! They make my whining feel very selfish.
-- Edited by wetbandit42 at 23:42, 2008-02-27
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1) I hurt my back so bad from tennis and pilates over the weekend (I pushed myself farther than usual) that I couldn't sleep last night, had to skip work today because I couldn't sit up all day, and the muscle relaxers I'm on are making me super dizzy all the time.
2) I got a cold last night and it's getting worse. Combined with the back issues, I'm pretty miserable. I hope it's a cold. I'm getting fever now. I wish I had a thermometer.
3) I have an appeal due on Thursday and I only have 40% done. The last 60% is the writing and really shouldn't take that long but since I'm sick/hurting right now, I'm really struggling. No one can help me with it because it's all my case and they don't know enough to pick up the slack. Plus I can't ask for help because then they'd know how far behind I was. I know I can get it done but I really hope I'm not completely miserable (physically) for the rest of the week because the days will be hellish. Ugh.
4) I'm freezing but my feet are getting kind of clammy. That's gross, right?
5) Chris Matthews blows. He makes my eyes itch.
All that stuff about my back hurting and getting a cold? Yeah, I have the flu. I finally went to the doctor on Thursday (after I'd gone to work) and they told me I have the flu but it's too far in to take any meds so I just have to live through it. I'm also quarantined to my house. The dr. told me not to hang around people or let people come over because I'm very contagious. I find this out after I go to work? Nice.
I had an appeal due on Thursday (hence the going into work to sign docs, etc.) and apparently while I was high from the flu, I was writing (or supposed to be writing) legal, logical arguments. I'm afraid to go back and read the final product for fear it'll sound crazy.
On the bright side, my boss was super considerate about me being sick and working from home, not that he had much choice but still.
Another small whine: I have to buy a few new lipglosses/balms since I put them on while I have the deadly! flu! virus!
My doctor is starting me on medicine that costs $300 a month. Not only that, but I have to sign a waiver acknowledging that I realize it could kill me. I almost hope that it doesn't work just so he can take me off of it and I don't have to worry or be poor anymore.
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I'm going to Florida in 2 weeks...sound great, right? Except that I'm going with a family of marathoners/Division I athletes whose total body fat percentage is 4. One of whom is 5 months pregnant and is still smaller than me. yeah. i've been dieting, working out, and toning up and know that i'm probably looking as good as i ever have...but next to these people i will look like the frumpy girl who really likes chocolate....
sigh.
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