I have been kind of quiet on the topic but wanted to share a little update with everyone.
For a long time, even after my last posting I still believed that even though I knew it wouldn't be the best for me, my relationship could prevail and I could be happy. A big part of me didn't want to accept that maybe I wasted 3 years. I think I was stuck on the idea that this was the man I was going to marry and have children with. I thought about how WRONG it would be for me to go into the situation and potentially expose my children to an alcoholic, abusive, irresponsible sitiation. I know it sounds crazy for thinking in such extremes but I think it helped me get out of the fantasy/denial mode I was in.
So anyway, I solved 2/3 financial debts, am up to date on my bills, am saving money to move out, joined WW and lost a little weight, quit smoking, and started attending Al Anon meetings.
Good for you for taking control and making positive changes! It's empowering to take control of positive change in your life like this, isn't it? I'm sure your weight loss is helping too -- I always feel more confident and empowered to make big changes when I get extra pounds off and feel better about myself.
Thanks for the update, and keep strong
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Wow! That is a lot for you to take on, but those are some incredibly positive changes you're making. You should be really proud of yourself. If you ever need a little extra support, know that we're here for you, cheering you on!
Congratulations! You have not had an easy time of things, but it sounds like it is making you a much stronger person. I am so glad things are starting to turn around for you!
Outstanding! You are making so many positive changes and becoming stronger and more solid as a result. Hang in there and come back for support whenever you need it.
Congratulations!! Sounds like you have made LOTS of changes for the best in a short time. I'm really impressed with how much you've been able to accomplish.
I know this will seem odd, since we've not met in person...but I just want to tell you I'm proud of you. You are making so many wonderful positive changes, despite difficulties...and that takes a strong character. Good luck with the upcoming move!
Thanks everyone :) I think I needed the extra push to accomplish what I wanted to but always made excuses for. And I feel like I have been extremely lucky, if not blessed in finding this apartment.
I found it on Craigslist, it is about $150 cheaper than what most of the other apts were going for, it is right on the train line that goes to my job, is near an LIRR line (to visit my family), is walking distance to one of my fave hangout places for shopping, coffee, bookstores, bars, etc.. My roommates are both female, in their mid 20s, one works in fashion, the other in PR.
So excited things are finally looking up! It is nice to be able to share the disappointments along with accomplishments.