I am just exhausted; it has been a tough two weeks. First my BF has been feeling very sick and fatigued for the past few months, well he got very sick with what he though was the flu which finally leadto his being diagnosed with what is really wrong; Lyme disease. He is very sick but will be okay; however it will take him awhile to feel totally better. I have just been freaking out, because his being sick or dying is my biggest fear! So I have been having a hard time not freaking out around him, and crying.
On top of that I am now trying to figure out if I can afford rent on my own or if I have to find a room mate. I had been planning to get an apartment when I move to Columbus with one of my best friends,we were planning on going to the same college.We had it all planned out,though once we were both accepted to the college, she changed her mind. Her parents had some fears/problems with her going there since it had a reputation of being a party school, and they felt it wasnt a good environment for her or whatever. They are very uptight people, and since they are paying for her education she has no choice but to go with their decision. I am so pissed!!! Why even let her apply if they had no intention of paying for or letting her go there!!! I am mad at myfriend for always going along with her parents wishes,I understand she is in a tough spot,but she always caves in and does what they want instead of what she wants.
So now I am left trying to figure out what I can afford, My Dad has offered to help me pay for rent if I need him too,but I really hate relying on my parents.Especially sinc ethey are helping to pay for my education in the first place.
I am sure I will figure out what to do,but I am just feeling so overwhelmed right now.
Thanks for letting me vent girls.
-- Edited by cat at 20:40, 2007-06-25
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To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.- Ralph Waldo Emerson
wow. thats a lot. remember to take care of yourself while going through all of this. (and feel free to vent anytime!) I know how you feel about your parents... I am in a similar situation. It's hard. In the end you will do what is right for you. I'm sending healing prayers to your bf.
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Carrie Bradshaw: The fact is, sometimes it's really hard to walk in a single woman's shoes. That's why we need really special ones now and then to make the walk a little more fun.
I think you shouldn't let her decision set you back. Start networking to find a roommate - the internet can be a great tool for that. I don't think you should have much trouble since I'm assuming you'd be staying near the college. Sometimes you can meet strangers that can become your best friends and you would never know it. When I moved into college I was randomly assigned a roommate and I spent all my years together with her, we got along great. Although that was a dorming environment, I know it would be a little different.
It's to late to live on campus,I would have had to put in a request for housing by May 1st.
I will probably start looking for a room mate. I was looking at someplaces on line today and at first look I might be able to afford an apparment on my own,depends what these places are like in person though. I am going next week to check things out,so hopefully I will have a better idea of what I can do.
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To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.- Ralph Waldo Emerson