HUGS!!! I am so sorry. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. Just let out the emotion and then get out there and you will find something even better.
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Some people collect stamps and coins--I collect shoes.
Oh, I am so sorry! What a terrible shock! Hang in there and have faith that you will find something new and great to do -- and try to enjoy the time off with your new puppy. :)