I'm so sorry you had such a bad day! You are one brave woman! your son is so lucky to have you and I know that you feel the same way about him. He is one adorable kid ( i remember his picture)! I just saw the Oprah show where she focused on this issue. These kids are so lucky to have great parents that love unconditionally (sp?). Keep your head and hopes up. Your doing your best and know that it's okay to curl up and cry and ask God "why me? why my son?" Your human and it's totally normal to feel the way you may sometimes!!! I will have you and your son in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself too!
This post made me cry too. I am so sorry you had a rough day. It's going to be okay. Remember that it's okay to feel the anger as well as the guilt. You are a human being, these are natural emotions, you have such strength to be a good parent, and you are one who deserves to go easy on herself and release sometimes.
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Sending big hugs your way. I'm sorry you had such a bad day. You sound like a truly wonderful mother and an amazing person in your own right. The feelings of frustration you have are completely normal and understandable -- don't be mad at yourself for having them. Tomorrow will be a better day.