Mr. Elle and I went out to dinner last night with my folks. Nothing seemed too out of sorts. In the parking lot after dinner my mom gave me a hug and told me that we'd have to get together soon because there was something she wanted to talk to me about.
After we got home, I was freaking out a little and knew I wouldn't be able to sleep, so I called. She'd obviously been crying, but still wouldn't tell me what it was. She said she didn't want to tell me on the phone.
Needless to say, I hardly slept a wink last night.
She's on her way over right now. I am beyond terrified that she or my dad is sick or dying, or they're getting a divorce, or something is wrong with my brother. I keep getting cortisol hot flashes whenever I think about it.
I don't want to know whatever she's going to tell me. It can't be good. In fact, it must be very very bad if it's not something she can tell me on the phone.
I'm scared.
-- Edited by Elle at 18:31, 2007-01-11
-- Edited by Elle at 22:47, 2007-01-11
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i hope everything is ok. i'll be thinking about you. let us know how things turn out.
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