Are you sure you're really being selfish? I mean, on the surface, ok, I can see your point and good job for being self aware and mature enough to realize that it's in poor taste to express these feelings to your boyfriend right now. But this almost sounds like something I do, where I get REALLY upset about something small, when I'm really freaked out about something else, and I just put it all on the small thing because that's more manageable and understandable at the time. Does that make sense? Either way, you're not a bad person for feeling like that. And you took steps to make sure your feelings won't hurt anyone else, so what else could you do, right?
I understand why you're annoyed, seeing as this has been planned for a while. But I do think that there are certain things the world is allowed to stop for. When someone I love dies, the world and my obligations fall away. When someone I love is sick, the same thing happens. So I know it'll be hard and everything, but please give him a break. He'll be back to his Sandy-devoted self soon... he just has to take care of himself and his family for now.
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