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Collette


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14 years ago today, 2 weeks from my 15th birthday I died. I should be dead, I should be in a coma, brain dead, in jail something. But I'm not. I'm alive and well and sometimes it just freaks me out. I've been clean and off of drugs for 14 yeas now, what's weird is I'm only 28, 2 weeks from my 29th birthday and I'm alive. alive and rambling.


I started at 12 with pot, never did anything for me except make me puke. By 13 I was a full fledged herion addict. Noone noticed for another year. Noone saw the track marks on my arm, behind my leg, between my toes. I still have scars that only I can see. Noone noticed when I dropped acid into my Dad's cofee so he could trip with me. I should be dead, I should be in jail. But I'm not.


At 14 I OD'd, I died. They said I had such a mix of herion and coke in my system it could kill a grown man. I came back. I've been clean for 14 years. 14 years.


I don't know why I'm putting this here, none of my "IRL" friends know this part of me. I know they'd look at me differently. I like that they only see the outside. The nice clothes, the fancy bags. They don't see an addict. Excuse me, recovering addict.


I'm 28 years old and I should be dead. But I'm not. Excuse my rambling, I just needed to get this out.


Thanks for listening.



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collette- how courageous you are to trust us with this information.  thank you for sharing, you never know who it could help out...it's so inspiring.  i don't think i'm the only one thinking this, but you've come such a long way.  i'm glad you're doing great now.



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wow collette.  that's huge.  i think that's great that you are clean now and have been for so long.  i'm sure all of your IRL friends as well as the girls her are glad you made it thru.  we are hear if you ever need to ramble.  that is what i love about ST.  you can tell people things like this, without them "knowing" you; it makes a person feel better by telling someone.  it's a great thing.  again, wow, and good for you.  you are a v. strong person.

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I don't quite know what to say except that I'm so glad. If your IRL friends did see this part of your past, I hope they'd see what we all get to see: a strong, sweet person who survived a horrible ordeal and learned from it and became better.


Thanks for sharing this. It was a great reminder for me of things to be thankful for this week.


And happy birthday early!   It's in two weeks?



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Elle


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Holy crap, Collette.  What a strong person you are to have been through that and come out the other side of it.  Congrats on 14 years.

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Oh, man, I just messed up my makeup with tears! Thank you for sharing that with us - I know it couldn't have been easy. I'm really proud of you & I'm glad to "know" you - you are a beautiful & special person.


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Wow, Collette.  That's quite a story.  You've been through a lot.  I just don't know what to say, except that I'm glad you're better now.  It is remarkable that you came back from such a dark place.  You're very strong.  Hugs to you, Collette.  Today might be a hard day for you, but look at how far you've come.  I hope getting it out here helps you heal. 

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OMG Collette.  Big hugs to you sweetie.  What a strong woman you are to put your story out there.  May I ask how you started and how you were resuscitated?   If you don't want to talk about it, I understand.  I just want to see how you persevered. 

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You are still here for a reason and if you haven't figured out the reason yet, you will one day and you will be thankful.


To me you are a strong women for sharing this with us. It may be hard but forget about the past and look at your future and the present. And just so you know I think everyone on this thread will see you differently, as a stong and beautiful person.



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Wow, Collettte, you are sucha strong person for being able to tell us about those things and still being here today clean and happy....

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You have a PM sweetie

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Oh my gosh, Collette.  I am so sorry that you went through that.  I'm so happy that you're with us now and such a happy and healthy person.  Thank you for sharing your story and congrats on 14 years!

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shopgirl82 wrote:

  collette- how courageous you are to trust us with this information.  thank you for sharing, you never know who it could help out...it's so inspiring.  i don't think i'm the only one thinking this, but you've come such a long way.  i'm glad you're doing great now.
I couldnt have said it better. Congrats girl! We love ya!

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Collette


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Karina wrote:

OMG Collette.  Big hugs to you sweetie.  What a strong woman you are to put your story out there.  May I ask how you started and how you were resuscitated?   If you don't want to talk about it, I understand.  I just want to see how you persevered. 

Thank you all for your amazing words, I was so afraid to post this here and you all have made me feel so supported.


Karina, I don't mind the questions at all. I started pretty much like any other kid. Someone offered, I was too afraid to say no. Easy as that. Coming back was harder, when I OD'd my "friends" dropped me off at the front door of the hospital. I don't remember what happened. I was told my heart stopped for nearly a minute and the Dr were able to bring me back. All I remember was waking up 3 days later in rehab. I spent 9 weeks there and years of outside therapy. It sucked but I had no choice. It was that, or nothing. I hope I answered your question?



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Congratulations on 14 years! You are made of some tough stuff to come through all that. I'm glad you are here with us, and thanks for sharing.

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wow, you are such a strong person! im so happy your clean and that you shared with us :)



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Congratulations! Wow. Your strength is really inspiring. I'm so glad you got a second chance, and that you used it so well.

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Collette, that's so wonderful that's you've been clean for so long and I'm so sorry you went through that. Horrible at any age, but I can only imagine how tough it would be to deal with addiction at 14. I hope writing it here is helpful to you, it must be hard to carry that around with you.

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collette, your story is amazing and inspiring. i think it is very courageous of you to post it.

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that is amazing!! you are awesome. *proud*



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