I hate that I cannot find a meaningful job. I'm sick of selling graphic tees all day just to get yelled at by my manager for not selling enough denim or by customers because our prices are too high. Okay, so I quit that job Sunday. Now I work at a bookstore (returning job, I worked there last semester) where I get yelled at by another boss who takes his job as seriously as if he were running the damn country and then students yell at me because their books aren't in.
I feel so undervalued (is that a word?) and empty. Like, my entire day was a waste. How did I help the world? By folding a shirt or making a display of books look pretty? I feel like I'm wasting my youth on piece of shit jobs. The thing is, I really don't care if that customer buys that shirt. I really don't. How does that person buying that shirt help me? How does me folding shirts help anything?
I want to use my brain. I want to help people. I want to feel relaxed and not micromanaged the entire time I work. Does this job exist for someone half way through college and at the tender age of 20? If so, I sure as hell can't find it. The thing is, for my own sanity I'm quiting the bookstore job in a month or so (as soon as the rush is over) and I don't have another job lined up. I will be unemployed. I don't know how I'll get by but I do know that I need something more. Something that makes me feel accomplished. I guess I'll just keep searching. Thanks for reading. That was my rant. To bed I go.
Would you want to work with kids? I worked at a summer camp this summer and I know a lot of people found that rewarding (not me personally, as I don't care for children). I know that there are a lot more jobs open for working with kids without a degree than other stuff. Maybe a job at your school? Giving tours? I don't know, I'm basically in the same position. I feel like I'm just wasting my time at college and I just want to get started with my life and do stuff.
You could try working for a local arts organization. They usually need box office help or ushers and then you would be working for a greater cause (the arts). I completely understand your feelings. I'm 26 and have yet to have a meaningful job. Hang in there, jen!!