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CarrieS


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Okay, let me first apologize if any of this sounds weird. I'm slightly drunk right now (maybe not the best time to be posting), so my emotions are kind of running high.

Anyways, my thing is this: I worked at Cedar Point (amusement park in Ohio) during the summer of 2000. Quite frankly, it was a life-changing summer. I am not the same person now that I was before or during that summer. I had a lot of stuff happen, a lot of it being firsts, that summer, the biggest being that I met someone and fell in love with him, the first and only guy to receive such an honor.

Now, this was almost 5 years ago, so I'm pretty much over anything that would have been happened to me at that time (the guy involved is a long, complicated and depressing story, so I won't go into that).

However, from time to time (and it really is rare-once/twice a year maybe) I get very upset about that summer (crying and such because I miss it that much). I start thinking about the guy and wish I could have that type of relationship back, I wish I could change why I left, I want the good feelings from then back, etc.. I know I can't do anything about the past, since it's done and over with, but I really wish it wouldn't bother me as much as it does, even now, 5 years after that whole summer.

Tonight after I came home from the bar I looked at my book that I had people write in and that set me off emotionally. I'm not even sure why, since I was fine the rest of the evening.

I am seriously emotionally attached to that park (because of that summer), but I just don't want it to upset me like it does sometimes. I really hope I'm not crazy for posting this, but I just had to get it off my chest right now.

I guess my problem is is that I don't like how it upsets me, even after 5 years...

That's all, thanks for letting me "vent"...

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Aww...::hugs::  I know EXACTLY how you feel!  I feel like that about my first job working at an IHOP.  I was there for 3 years. I had a lot of firsts with people there and there were so many great times.  It has been about 6 years since I worked there and I still want to go back to that time in my life.  I feel a little sad when I go in there to eat because some of the people are still there, most aren't, and we don't even talk even if at one time they played a big role in my life.

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((((((BIG HUGS))))))))

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CarrieS


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Thanks guys! For some reason, it just all got to me last night. I'm thankful it only happens a couple of times a year or I might go insane!

Part of me thinks I want to work there again, but I can't because I'm not allowed (because of a bad thing I did while there-very embarrassed about it) and because I know I would just be looking for what I had the summer I did work there, which I wouldn't find because it's not THAT summer.

Thanks again for listening..


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Awww...I know exactly how you feel.  I have a period in my life that I look back on like that. Sometimes, I would give anything to go back to that time.  I had a ton of friends, went out a lot, had tons of fun...everything was grea and then it makes me hate my life right now.  *Sigh*  I know how you feel. You're not crazy. It happens to lots of people. {{{{hugs}}}}}

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I think we all have times in our lives like that when we're young and growing up, especially when we fall in love for the first time.  I tear up when I watch shows like the Wonder Years or listen to middle aged hippies talk about the 60s and that time where everything seemed free, but it really wasn't.  Summers, I swear, most people always have one amazing summer that they will remember forever.  Everything is so perfect and uncomplicated and fun and pure.  You really feel alive- maybe in part because you know it won't last.  So many summer loves feel wrong once you move into the fall.  I've had jobs and periods in my life that I would like to revisit, but I restrain because I know it won't be the same.  I just remind myself that I am still young, amazing things still happen, and that I am wiser because of it.  On VH1 My best years, The bad girls, one of the girls was talking about how they used to smoke cigarettes after school or something and then she said, it's not the same cigarette anymore.  Something like that.  That really made me think about how fun it was to be rebellious and young and free, and to just be a different person.  Man, now i'm sad!   

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Carrie-what is it about Cedar Point? I have some emotional attatchments to it to. I broke it off with my bf of 3 and 1/2 years shortly after we went to Cedar Point and the guy (being an alchoholic) smuggled in a couple bottles of jim beam and drank them throughout the day and got all violent and weird with me. Small world.

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(((hugs))) i go through this sort of weird nostaglic longing thing a lot.



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CarrieS


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Jen, I don't know. I know that when I was there it was the first time away for me to live out of state/away from home. I also know that I was free when I was there and did whatever I wanted (not all of it good), and I couldn't really do that at home because people know me there. Nobody would ever see me again after CP, so I just didn't care.

Lynnie-That's exactly it. If I worked there again I would just be trying to re-capture that summer of 2000, but that's just not possible because it's not the same situation or people, etc. I go back for vacation because I do love the park, despite the emotional thing, and I'm a roller coaster freak (the best park to go to for that! )

I'm nostalgic and a little sad about the past when I'm there, but I always have a blast because of the rides.

Yeah, it's a whole other world for me when I'm there. It's almost out-of-body....

-- Edited by CarrieS at 02:18, 2005-03-13

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