STYLETHREAD -- LET'S TALK SHOP!

Aww, shopchicago33 (((((hugs))))))  I'm so right there with you.  It's a miracle our heat is working today.

My thing is that I moved to Manhattan and then found out that I have to have a special teaching certification to work with kids in the city as a speech pathologist.  In other states it's easy to get certified but here it takes at least 4 months of just waiting time and no one will hire me without it. 

I was offered a job at a nursing home yesterday but it's really far away and had crazy politics I didn't want to be involved with, so I just called and turned it down and I'm pretty sure the lady (who LOVED me yesterday) was really pissed.

I need to find a job, like two weeks ago, or I have to go back to SC because I'm running out of money.  Other people don't understand why I don't want a job that is not in speech pathology, but we have to do a clinical fellowship year that I just need to get over with.

I just want to work and there are plenty of kids that need me but the stupid laws that are just red tape are preventing it.

*its cold right now in nyc, not AS cold, but still cold, espec. since our heat barely works
*i worked from 9am til 10pm yesterday, 9am til 2:30am monday, 12 hours each sat and sunday- and late every day last week including Sunday, all for a show thats over in 10 mins!
* still soo much to do
*my sisters 21st bday was monday and all i had time to do was call her- really want to see my family!
*sad that my bf is 1500 miles away and i have no idea if/when we'll be in the same place

glad though that i'm not sick right now- my roommate claims she has mono!  And despite being hard on my body and drinking too much coffee, i feel really good.

-I'm tired of being broke.

-I just accepted a job, but the hours aren't that great, so unless they realize that they love me and give me better work hours, it may not work out in the long run.

-My house is a mess and I don't want to clean it.  Why?  Because I have two children who mess it up within one day of it being cleaned.  What's the point!

-My SIL just spent $1200 on my niece's 5th birthday party..while I'm broke.

-My dh has started his own business and has not broken even one month in the last year.  I'm trying to be supportive, but I'm tired of not having extra money or feeling guilty about every purchase.

That's it for now....

Oh hell, I'll play.

* My job sucks. Not only am I not getting the assistant as promise, now I'm not even going to be getting help from the department/shared assistant that was supposed to be the substitute. Basically, she's going to be the Sales Assistant, not marcom/events. So, I'm screwed by that place. Again.

* I hate job hunting. It stresses me out and I've been lazy about it. I have my resume ready, but writing cover letters just aggravates me.

* It's cold as shit outside and I'm not motivated to do anything. Getting dressed in the morning sucks, so I've basically been throwing on jeans, a l/s t, the heaviest wool sweaters that I own and flat, suede boots every single day. I'm a fashion nightmare right now, but I'm too cold to care.

* I'm broke. Not getting the raise I expected, my student loan payments just went up and I think when my lease is up, I'm moving in with one of my friends to cut back on expenses.

That's all I've got. But I feel that even though there are some things I bitched about, I definitely have some positives going on in my life and I feel the need to discuss those as well. I think I'll start a new thread for that.

oh boy, i needed this:

it's sooo cold right now!  i feel like i just go to work, come home, eat, and sleep.  i haven't been running because i planned on running outside instead of renewing my gym membership but it's too cold, so instead, all the progress i made, is gone.  plus, i'm so bored from not wanting to go out, that i eat out of boredom, and nothing healthy.

i got a promotion at my other job, but i'm mad that i didn't ask for more because i'm pretty sure they would've given me more. 

i just got my hair did and it's not what i wanted.  plus, it makes my pale skin look even paler. 
i want to redo our bathroom, but i can't paint because it's too cold to leave the door out to air out the fumes. 

i don't want to waste vacation time going to my cousin's weddings or doing family things, i want to use it for myself and to spend time with my boy. 

i'll stop now....but i just feel so blah right now due to the weather. 

I am finally facing the fact that I am going to be broke, as in dirt broke, as in barely-making-enough-to-get-by broke, for at least the next five years. I don't regret doing this second bachelor's, but it never occurred to me how depressed it would make me to be graduating at 28 and looking at a starting salary that is roughly equivalent to what I made at my first paralegal job, seven years ago, when I was just out of school for the FIRST time. Only with a shitload more loan debt and a massive feeling of inferiority to all of my friends who are buying apartments, maxing out 401Ks and Roths, etc.

And it just seems to get more miserable to be broke in New York. At least, it gets more miserable to be my age and still be broke.

I guess I just have to hope that really liking my job-which I do--will make up for being penniless.

Can I join?

It's so cold here, so all I've been doing is working and eating.  Not necessarily in that order.  All my clothes are too tight and I feel disgusting.  I know I should be more social, but sometimes I just want to hole up in my room and hibernate until spring.

 I feel all this pressure to buy a place, but when I looked at what I can actually afford, it was discouraging -- I'd have to buy an hour away from work as opposed to ten minutes away, where I live now.

And I feel like no matter what I do, I always compare it to others and feel like it's just not good enough.

Now I'm going to the anti pity party thread to bring myself back up again!